Darkling

So, I have worked out the schedule for the busy work spell. It involves driving, tubes, taxis, hotels, friend's house and severe anxiety on my part.

This tipped me into a(nother) bad place. There's the ongoing fear of the future and the imposter syndrome in the papers. So, recently I sent one to a journal and the editor told me that it led to "intense discussion" which he will have to summarise for me. Some say, that's what a paper that says something new "should" do. But I feel it's just more... negativity... further proof that I am pretending to be able to write.

Anyway, the anxiety has been very almost unbearable. Yes, both very and almost.

So picture that have this haunting quality seem somewhat apt!