Dreaming

Real dreaming.

I dreamed that work had been worse than it was. That my script had to be completely and utterly rewritten because it was so bad.

I dreamed that I was driving and coming fast upon a line of stationary traffic and there was not space to veer to right and left and I thought, with great composure, or perhaps carelessness, disinterest, or perhaps a certain crazy glee, that my brakes would stop me in time.

I dreamed that the dog jumped into a river and I heard the snap and his left hind leg had cracked in two and first the bottom half was hanging and then it had gone and I was running after him and trying to call but I couldn't remember what I needed to call to make him come back because he was racing away in terror on three legs and would soon be out of earshot and part of me was desperate and the other part was thinking, well, what will I do when I get him?

Today I drove and came fast upon a line of stationary traffic, though the cars were different colours from in my dream and I braked and it was OK and I thought of the dream and how I need to get the car serviced.

Today the dog is walking round and round and keeps looking up at the sofa because it is such an effort now for him to jump. And I think of the dream and how it's his right leg in real life that is weak.

Today I think of work and I stop thinking of work. I think of all the things I want to say in the practice paper. I think of reading Evelyn Pluhar or Galen Strawson. And I think of stupid Clary - who used the one wish that the Shadowworld has to raise Jace from the dead which made him vulnerable to the Queen of the Underworld who wanted to bring back from the dead her son who is Clary's brother and she used Jace to kill and possess a load of people and to prevent her plan Magnus lost his magic and Simon lost his family and Simon and Jace think Clary's dead and they are both in love with her - everyone loves her and thinks the use of the wish was fair enough, because it was for love - so now they are wracked with guilt and Magnus is powerless while Clary is in Siberia with her resurrected brother, who loves her and wants to learn to be good from her. Oh and in between Clary, who was given the Angel Rune for killing her incredibly evil father Valentine and NOT using the wish, brought her incredibly evil father back to life so although Simon sent the Queen of the Underworld back to the Underworld, Valentine and the Queen's son are alive and well. Oh, plus because Valentine was alive, he freed all the members of the Circle so now all the Downworlders and the Shadowhunters are in danger. Clary is a narcissistic cow. But she's the heroine and I bet all the Gen Z kid think she's great for living her truth and being passionate and loving. Fuck the rules about not bringing people back from the dead and not using the wish except to save the Shadowhunters from destruction. She has pure angel blood. With angels like that, who needs demons????