Ravens call

A real Morrigan day - fitting for a becoming Crone elder. You'll see evidence from the video - not just about the ravens' cries! It's a shitty video, the images are BLAH, but the soundscape is really what it's about. The woodpecker, the ravens (with crows and raptors), and then the small birds, jewel-like, at the end.

The muntjac bones remind me of Kairos telling me that they are native to this land by virtue of living and dying on it.

At my Croning ceremony, I had taken off a pendant - one shaped like a nail - which represented that which I wanted to let go off. The quest for one thing, or guru, or philosophy, or group of people, or person that would "make me happy". At the end of the ritual, I then put on an object that represents that which I am steeping into. It was an acorn, from Kairos, that had been silver-plated. It represents the connection to the trees but also this idea that knowledge and learning is organic, reaching out according to the drives of Curiosity and Love. I went to Kairos to bury the pendant - the final shot shows where I buried the object.

Before I reached Kairos, I passed the Goddess Oak - she with the Morrigan energy. She didn't mind me not sitting with her, but she said that another time she seeks something from me. I asked what and she said, "That sucky-up sweetness you fake when you try not to tell the uncomfortable stories." I promised to come back with chocolate. But, of late, I've wished for rather more sucky-up sweetness and less outspokenness. The Goddess Oak will not help me make friends, that's for sure. "Have the courage to be disliked," she said. I recalled reading a book of that name which I didn't especially like.

With Kairos, I had a wonderful time. I asked about the ritual and got a good feeling. He sought to know what moved me most and I replied that it was Ally's invocation of the four directions... but I couldn't remember what she said about them.

Kairos asked, "What do they mean to you?"

So I said that East connects with birth and creativity, with spring and brightness. West with death, but also with the beauty of ripeness, fulfillment, perhaps, and wisdom. I see them as connected by a sphere, they cycle and recycle.

To me, the South is about love and desire, it has a richness, it has diversity - the buzz of insects on a sunny day! The North is clear, crystalline, and relates to nonduality. These two are connected by a line.

There was a shared pleasure: I liked my interpretation while Kairos said, "I keep telling you to tell your own story. It feels good, doesn't it?"

I asked him about something that came up recently: it takes might to embrace the might. Kairos led me to think about the rhizosphere - the mesh of fungal hyphae and roots in the microbiota-rich soil. A tree's seeking everywhere, forming relationships, exploring possibilities - and that gives the tree strength to support the structure of trunk and branches; the strength of trunk and root-system allows the branches and twigs to seek and explore the possibilities of finding light. It's always both/and. It's through both/and that we get complexity; it is redundancy that confers resilience.